Try again?

Am I completely retarded that I agreed to try things again?

We talked about what needed to change, and it seems he doesn't *only* want me for sexy times.
And although I'm not a miserable crybaby...well not as often as I was, I am completely weary. I'm still freaking out about what he's up to, why he doesn't text, if he is with one of the ugly german biatches...so yeah, not exactly back to normal.

It is nice that he is around again though...
I lost my lola on the weekend. This has not been a good year.